SLOKA OF THE WEEK (from Krishna.com):

Sri Godruma-Candra-Bhajana-Upadesa, Text One
yadi te hari-pada-saroja-sudha-
rasa-pana-param hridayam satatam
parihritya griham kali-bhava-mayam
bhaja godruma-kanana-kunja-vidhum

Translation

"If your heart wishes to be always absorbed in drinking the ambrosial mellows of the lotus feet of Lord Hari, then give up mundane household life, full of Kali-yuga quarrels and strife, and just worship the beautiful Moon of Godruma's forest bowers."

JOURNAL:

Last night I dreamed of the devotees. It was a small class given in a house and I kept getting stuck in an elevator. I missed the class and when I tried to approach the devotee who had lead it I was stopped by his wife and told that it "was only for those who are ready". She gave me a strange looking string of green plastic beads and I was sent on my way.

At fifty I am old enough by Indian tradition to renounce householder life. As an American I can't imagine doing it. We just don't leave our families and we hope to be surrounded by them at the time of death. Still, there is nothing to stop me from worshiping Lord Chatanya in my limited way.