SLOKA OF THE DAY:

Bhagavad Gita As It Is -
Chapter 9 Text 14
satatam kirtayanto mam
yatantas ca drdha-vratah
namasyantas ca mam bhaktya
nitya-yukta upasate

satatam--always; kirtayantah--chanting; mam--about Me; yatantah--fully endeavoring; ca--also; drdha-vratah--with determination; namasyantah--offering obeisances; ca--and; mam--Me; bhaktya--in devotion; nitya-yuktah--perpetually engaged; upasate--worship.

TRANSLATION

Always chanting My glories, endeavoring with great determination, bowing down before Me, these great souls perpetually worship Me with devotion.

JOURNAL:

Yesterday I got mad at God for reasons I would rather not go into here. One of my biggest problems is that I don't like it when He handles me roughly. I know that I deserve whatever karma I have made for myself but some days I just don't want to face it. This causes my japa to be dry and unfulfilling which, in turn, makes me feel that Krishna is stepping away from me.

Is it because I am not always chanting His glories? I am not "endeavoring with great determination"? I know that I am offencive in my chanting and in the way I worship. I rarely bow down before Gopal. Instead I treat Him as a friend.

Arjuna offers this prayer after seeing Krishna's universal form; Thinking of You as my friend, I have rashly addressed You "O Kṛṣṇa," "O Yādava," "O my friend," not knowing Your glories. Please forgive whatever I may have done in madness or in love. I have dishonored You many times, jesting as we relaxed, lay on the same bed, or sat or ate together, sometimes alone and sometimes in front of many friends. O infallible one, please excuse me for all those offenses (Bhagavad Gita 11.41-42).

Today this is my prayer too.